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All that we have: An anniversary letter

The London West Hollywood, The London West Hollywood bed, MacBook ProDear Craig,

As I write this, I’m sitting in my hotel bed, 400 miles away from you.

And in just less than an hour, it will be our anniversary.

But I am here and you are there.

And as much as it pains me to be away from you, I am here because of your endless, unwavering support, because you always encourage me to enjoy every amazing experience that comes my way.

I am so grateful that you not only love and believe in me, but that you buoy me as I explore my world.

The past year has been filled with things both amazing and challenging.

And while our days have been filled with incredible joy, heartache filled an unfathomable amount of space in our lives.

Thank you for remaining by my side through the weeks of optimism and the following weeks of disillusionment.

As we faced each new month with renewed hope for another baby, I was ever grateful to have you by my side.

As each cycle slipped through our fingers, I knew that I would crumble without you there.

And now, as we each come closer to accepting that we’ve likely reached the end of our infertility journey, I know that as long as you’re by my side, I will survive this.

We will survive this.

Thank you for continually reminding me that our love can withstand anything as long as we continue to approach our marriage with an honest heart.

Thank you for holding my hand when I cried and listening to me as I struggled to understand the whys.

And most of all, thank you for reminding me that we aren’t defined by what we don’t have…but rather, by all that we do.

I can’t imagine a day of my future without you in it.

And with your hand clasped firmly in mine, I’m certain that we’ll be fine.

Thank you for the gift of your love.

I love you beyond words,

Nichole

Bag of Joy

This week, this purse, my early anniversary gift from Craig, brought me tremendous joy.

Not just because of the purse itself (which I contemplated sleeping with last night, so in love am I), but also because of the words that accompanied it.

When Craig asked what I wanted this year and I showed him pictures of this purse, he never…

…tried to dissuade me,

…asked if I was certain about the color, or

…encouraged me to opt for a color more in line with what I’d normally choose…black or tan.

(In fact, I’ve been shlepping around the same black and tan diaper bag for four years now!)

Instead, he told me that I should choose whatever color made me happy and that I should just take a risk.

That he indulged me and saw that I was trying to break free of my comfort zone brought me immeasurable joy.

And the purse? Swoon.

Thank you, babe!

How about you? What brought you joy this week? Please share it with me here!

An Anniversary Letter of Love

Happy Anniversary, Babe.

These past five years have been the happiest and fullest of my life.

My world is a beautiful place because of you…because of this love that you have given me.

Thank you for sharing with me your positive outlook on life.  When I grow panicky and full of anxiety, you calm and soothe me.  When I feel that things are bigger than I am, you are always there, holding my hand, showing me that together we can handle anything in our path.

Thank you for the security that you offer me.  Your stable, calm nature brings precious peace to my world.  Few things feel better than falling asleep at night, knowing that you are always there for me.

Thank you for your sense of  humor.  So often, I grow focused on the bumps in the road.  I love that you tell me jokes that are so long that it takes you eleventy years to get to the punchline, because by the time you’re done, I can’t remember what was even plaguing me in the first place.

Thank you for remaining endlessly patient with me.  I am indeed a work in progress.  I appreciate your ability to look at me and know that although I am imperfect, my strengths outnumber my weaknesses.

Thank you for truly loving me unconditionally.  The knowledge that even when I stumble and fall, you are there to pick me up, brush me off, and hold me close, is undoubtedly one of the lovelist gifts ever given to me.

Thank you for supporting me and pushing me further than I think I can possibly go.  Thank you for acknowledging that being a mother and wife is just a part of who I am and for encouraging me to be Nichole, the writer, the woman, the individual.

Thank you for Katie.  She is magic and wonder.  She is you.  She is me.  I suspect that even if I thank you every day for the rest of my life, I will never be able to adequately express my gratitude to you for helping me to become a mother.

Thank you for Matthew, the sweet boy that I didn’t realize I even wanted.  Thank you for holding my hand when we found out that we were having a boy and for assuring me that he was going to bring amazing things to our world.  You were patient with me and you were so incredibly wise.  He and his sister fill my heart with such tremendous happiness and joy that it nearly explodes with love.

Thank you for promising me forever and for being ever-willing to do the work necessary to keep our marriage strong.

Thank you for investing in our marriage every single day.  Whether it’s bringing me my coffee in the morning, calling me during the day to tell me a funny story, or sharing a beer with me in the evening, you know exactly how to make me feel connected to you.

Thank you for being you and thank you for the gift of your love.

I am beyond blessed to call you my husband and my very best friend.

I love you.

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Nichole Beaudry @NicholeBeaudry Location: Northern California
Each and every day, I strive to appreciate the wonder, beauty, and whimsy in the small moments, the moments that, when strung together, form a lifetime.
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