A booth for four

You grasp my hand and pull me toward the booth where the hostess waits.

There is no longer any discussion of a high chair or booster seat.

You simply won’t have it.

You hoist yourself onto the seat, bounce two times for good measure.

The server greets us and you order milk, please and reach for the crayons.

Your milk arrives and I watch you lift it with hands that don’t yet reach all the way around the cold cup.

And you smile through the orange bendy straw.

I watch you and still can’t believe you’re mine.

Can’t believe how much I am not me without you.

You smile at your sister and without a word, she smiles back and hands you a red crayon, barely used.

Your eyes connect and there’s something there between the two of you that I can’t permeate.

So I watch in awe and gratitude.

Moments pass and I glance at your daddy who sees exactly what I see.

And I say to him, we’ll be okay. I know now. We’ll be more than okay.


  1. Galit Breen theselittlewaves.com

    Oh your words, and your heart.

    So, so very grateful for both.

    Lovely, as always. #StillGotIt


  2. Carla allofmenow.com

    “Can’t believe how much I am not me without you.” Yes! So grateful LTYM introduced us. Love connecting with other writers & mothers!

  3. Sherri

    Oh, this is exactly what you needed…your words are so beautiful, and I can FEEL your emotions.

    Much love to you…you will be just fine. xoxo

  4. molly campbell mollydcampbell.com

    Beautiful. Oh, you have to let them go. But it’s a heartbreak, and then WHOOSH, you have an adored adult child to confide in.

  5. Rachel Voorhees rachelvoorhees.com

    You are one of the most amazing mothers I know. I love your raw emotion and love.

  6. angela angelaamman.com

    I know this moment. And it made me cry to read it from you in this beautifully simple way, with all of your emotion just laid out here. You will be so much more than ok. xoxo

  7. Elaine A. misselaineouslife.com

    Such a lovely moment as a family. :-) I smiled as I read your sweet words…

  8. Mama J mamahearmeroar.wordpress.com

    How perfectly you’ve described that tender moment. So much love.

  9. Natalie mommyofamonster.com

    More and more lately, I love just watching the kids. They are beautiful and amazing. This post says it all. So perfect.

  10. Tonya lettersforlucas.com

    So beautifully expressed. I love you and your words.

  11. Lorraine C-B

    With the sweet sentiments, and the ability to see things in a deeper way, I say you are more than okay.

  12. julie gardner juliecgardner.com

    More than okay. Yes, you will be.
    You already are.

    So. Much. Love.

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