42 Minutes

Lisa Smiley PhotographyDear Katie,

42 minutes.

That’s how long I have to wait to see your beautiful face and wrap you in my arms.

When we dropped you off at camp this morning, there were tears.

Yours as we said goodbye and mine as I got into the car.

I’m hoping that yours dried sooner than mine.

And now I wait.

40 minutes.

Here in the quiet of the livingroom, amidst your princess shoes, Curious George books and American Girl doll.

I wait.

I would give anything to keep you here at home with me.

But, you’re ready to spread your wings and I have to encourage you to do exactly that.

It’s not your job to make sure I’m happy…it’s mine to make sure that YOU are.

37 more minutes.

This fall, as we send you off to kindergarten, I will struggle to let you go.

But, ultimately I will release your hand and watch you pull away and thrive.

And I’m certain that my pride will eclipse my sadness.

In time.

With a heart bursting with love,

Mommy

This post is linked up with Just Write, over at the extraordinary ordinary.

15 comments

  1. @sellabitmum twitter.com/sellabitmum

    Oh hon. My heart. She will be awesome. She is awesome..because she has you. Just wait until she is 9 and you are like so not even close to being cool anymore and she hangs at the house down the block all day. HA! Then it's fun to just embarrass them in front of their friends. Which is VERY cool. xo

  2. anymommy

    It will. And I would meet you for coffee while she was gone, if I could.

  3. Sherri

    Oh, sweet friend! This is such a hard thing for you now, but I promise…cross my heart promise…that it WILL get easier as time goes on.

    Hugs!

  4. nannygoats nannygoatsinpanties.com

    This is one of those time where I can only hug you while at the same time have no idea what you're going through. I mean, I don't even have a CAT, fer Chrissakes.

  5. angela angelaamman.com

    I worry about this, too, I truly do. I know you will get through it because you always, always have the best interest of your babies at heart. xo

  6. Oh. My….this is so close to all of our hearts. :-) It's so hard to walk away and let them go…even for that short time. :-)

  7. I'm glad to see I'm not the only one who doesn't want to let my baby go. :) He's been asking about school a lot lately and we're getting ready to really start looking into sending him to a preschool. I dread the day that I have to drop him off and leave him. Sounds like you handled it beautifully.

  8. Your words are beautiful. I am right there with you this fall. Sadie is off to Kindergarten. They grow so fast. We will have to be there for each other during those early drop off days!

  9. Jaime ainsleylynn.blogspot.com

    I'm sending mine to Kindergarten in 3 weeks as well…though, I work full time so she's been in daycare her whole life. But for some reason this seems different. Such a big girl and all I see when I look in her face is that tiny baby they handed me 5 years ago. It goes by way too fast.

  10. thisismynewmoon

    She is so cute. I hope she had a great day at camp.

  11. findingourwaynow

    How beautifully said and so heart felt. I just love this post. :-)

  12. Aleta fleurdealeta.blogspot.com

    She's beautiful! And your post is too :)

  13. beautiful.. such a strong, sweet little girl.

  14. ksluiter

    You are raising a reflection of yourself, my friend. And that is a strong, beautiful, independent girl. Hugs.

  15. Tonya lettersforlucas.com

    I am right there with you, but it does get easier. Truly. I love Lucas being in school as much as he enjoys attending. It makes the reuniting that much sweeter.

    Hang in there, my friend. xoxo

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