A letter to my father on Father’s Day…

Dear Dad,

Is that what I would call you now? Or would I be one of those girls who, as a grown woman, still called you Daddy?

Would I have taken you to lunch today to celebrate you on your special day? Would we have laughed and talked together over a beer?

In my mind, I see us sitting across the table from one another, looking into identical blue eyes.

I think we would have enjoyed each other…found countless similarities in one another.

How I wish I had even one Father’s Day memory with you.

I never made you a card. Never scrawled my name across construction paper for you.

I never made you macaroni art or gave you a tie that you didn’t really want.

I never chose a card for you or wrapped a gift with far too much tape.

But you’ve always been here in my heart.

There’s a spot there that will forever be yours. It is in that spot where my imagination conjures up what it would have been like to give you bear hugs, shower you with kisses, turn to for advice.

It is that spot that makes me hold on to the notion of a heaven.. a place where I could spend eternity thanking you…for all of the gifts that you gave me even after you were gone…my sense of humor, my self-confidence, my ability to see all the potential that this world holds, and my gratitude for the beauty in my life.

I carry these gifts from you that make me who I am. And I hope that in our short time together on this earth, I gave you gifts that changed you as well.

Because even though you’re gone, my heart bursts with love for you,




  1. Sherri oldtweener.com

    Oh, sweet friend…thinking of you today, and how proud your Daddy would be to see the lovely, warm person you have become.

  2. Joy

    Beautiful. xo

  3. Yuliya shesuggests.com

    Hugs to you on this day. I'm thinking of all of the wonderful memories that your daughter will have of her father and that puts a big smile on my face.

  4. Tracie fromtracie.com

    Sending you so much love today.

  5. findingourwaynow

    How very nice and very touching. :-)

  6. julie gardner juliecgardner.com

    Oh my.

    So much love here.

    Enough for a lifetime.

  7. Melissa confessionsofadrmom.com

    Where's the love button? XO

  8. Very well done Nicole…God Bless You and Yours! You write such compelling Blogs, hope I learn from You.

  9. ksluiter

    beautiful, friend.

    he is so proud of you.

    he is.

  10. Tonya lettersforlucas.com

    I have read this several times since Father's Day, unsure how to comment. This is lovely but it makes me so sad. There is both desperation and love in your words. I wish you knew all the unknowns about your father. Sending you peace and love. xoxo

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