Where are you going, Mommy?
I’m meeting up with Sherri* and going to the city, Katie.
What are you going you do there?
Well, I’m going to read some of my work to two nice ladies who are putting on a show called Listen to Your Mother.
Because they are giving mommies like me a chance to read their stories today and perhaps again in a few months in front of a big group of people.
Like Disney on Ice?
Well kind of, but not quite, Katie.
But why are you doing it?
Well, for many reasons. I wrote a piece that I want to share with them, I want to try something that will help me to be a better person, and I want to know that I challenged myself.
What did you write about? Is it about me?
I wrote about a time when you were very little, before Matthew came along, when you saved Mommy and Daddy during a sad time. I wrote about how grateful I am for you.
Do you have to go?
No. I suppose I don’t. But in a way, I kind of do. If I don’t try it, I will never know what could have happened. Sometimes the biggest joys come from doing things you didn’t think you could do, Katie.
Mommy, are you scared?
Yes, Katie. Very.
You can do it, Mommy. Just do your best job.
And I did.
With her words in my head, I did.
I entered the small, comfortable room and was greeted my two women whose kind faces told me that my words were in good hands.
I sat and quietly read my words and shared my pain.
And some part of me healed.
I will be there for the show in May, whether it’s on stage or in the audience.
Because there are so many beautiful, sad, funny, and breathtaking stories to be shared.
What a remarkable thing to have been a part of.
And I hope that one day, when Katie is scared to do something, she remembers that day when I tried something that terrified me, and it brings her courage.
*Thank you, Sherri, for the extra push I needed to audition. Without your encouragement and ability to talk me off the ledge, I likely wouldn’t have auditioned. Thank you for helping me to look brave for Katie. You are such a lovely friend.