A Birthday Letter to My Sweet Boy

Dear Matthew,

There are times when I sit down to write and the words just flow…when the words are there, just waiting to be written.

This isn’t one of those times.

Each time I sit down to write this letter, I stare at a blank screen.

That is how much I love you, my sweet boy.

There just aren’t words to tell you how much.

You are, without question, one of my life’s greatest gifts.

Each night, in the darkness of your bedroom, I hold you close in your rocking chair andĀ I grasp for the words to tell you what you mean to me.

Five minutes…ten…fifteen…just a few minutes more.

I know that I should go…but you make me weak.

With your kisses; what were once nose kisses are now proper cheek kisses.

With your hugs and the way you hold onto me as though just a few minutes longer are all you’ll need.

Most nights, I can barely tear myself away from you…from the whispers and the hugs.

Thank you, Matthew…thank you for wearing your love for me on the outside…for holdingĀ me with all that you are.

Each night, as I close the door to your room, I feel as though you couldn’t possibly know how much I love you.

Because there aren’t words for this kind of love.

So, I will spend my lifetime showing you.

Happy second birthday, my beautiful boy.

You are my sunshine.

With a heart bursting with love,

Mommy

24 comments

  1. Alison@Mama Wants This

    Such a sweet, beautiful letter, Nichole.

    They do wear their love on the outside – I hope that will always hold true even when they are older.

    Happy 2nd Birthday, Matthew.

  2. Grammy

    Happy Birthday, Matthew
    I love you very very much!

  3. Sweet letter :) Happy Birthday to Matthew!

  4. Happy Birthday sweet Matthew!

    Nichole, this is just lovely. The unguarded way they can share their love is both beautiful and inspiring.

  5. Evonne theumbels.com

    Such a sweet letter. Words may not be enough, but he will always know how much you love him.

    Happy birthday Matthew!

  6. Rachel mommyneedsavacation.com

    Beautiful letter!!!!

    Happy Birthday to your sweet baby boy. I know exactly how you feel because I have those same emotions for Tyler!

  7. Sherri

    Oh, such a sweet post…first thing I looked for this morning, because I knew it would be.

    And you've got me so teary. We sure do love our little boys, with an intensity that can't always be put into words.

    Happy, Happy Birthday to M!!

  8. Jess straighttalkjess.com

    What a beautiful bit of sunshine. Happy birthday and happy day to you all!

  9. @TheLungos twitter.com/TheLungos

    Happy Birthday to your sweet boy. What a sweet letter.

    I can't believe my Bubba will 2 in a few weeks, too.

  10. Each night, in the darkness of your bedroom, I hold you close in your rocking chair and I grasp for the words to tell you what you mean to me.

    I love those moments too. His skin is seems so soft in those moments, still my little boy.

  11. erin margolin erinmargolin.com

    Happy birthday to your sweet boy!
    And still sending you baby dust—hope you are hanging in there!
    xoxox

  12. Elaine misselaineouslife.com

    Oh the love, it is definitely SO hard to put into words. You did pretty well though.

    Happy Birthday to your darling little guy!! xoxo

  13. Jessica

    My heart is bursting just from reading this. And two? It is so old isn't it? Such little men they start to become but luckily they are happy to still be our babies too.

  14. Elizabeth mommonsense.com

    Don't you wish you could just pause time every now and then and keep them just as they are?…But then again, there are so many fun things to come! =)
    Happy Birthday to your Sweet Boy!

  15. katie sluiternation.com

    awww…happy birthday sweet matthew!! and happy BIRTH day to you, momma!

  16. Lance

    That's a good looking young man.

    Happy Birthday to him…what a sweet tribute

  17. twertman

    What a lovely letter, Nichole. Happy Birthday to you both!

    What is it about little boys that make their mommies weak in the knees? They are just magical creatures.

    xoox

  18. @librajenn twitter.com/librajenn

    Aww! Happy Birthday to both of you :)

  19. Jessica D Torres

    Happy birthday to this beautiful boy. From the picture I saw of him after the enchilada it looks like he had a good day.

  20. Jaime ainsleylynn.blogspot.com

    This line…

    thank you for wearing your love for me on the outside

    …makes me stop breathing. So true about our children…you capture it so simply and so perfectly. I wish we could all be so easy and free with our love.

    Happy Birthday Matthew!!

  21. John daddyrunsalot.com

    How the heck did you make things dusty in my office?!

    This is beautiful . . . I need to remind myself, in those times where either of my children cry, just to be held . . . even when I'm tired & want to do other things, that there might come a time where "just holding them" is the last thing they want.

    Beautiful, Nichole. Absolutely beautiful.

  22. SWOON!!!!

  23. CDG

    oh, sweet Matthew. and his sweet Mommy.

  24. Stasha northwestmommy.com

    They will always be our babies, no matter if 1,2,3 or 12,21,33… Happy celebrations to you all!

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