Coloring Your Childhood

crayola crayonsDear Katie,

You came downstairs today, earlier than I anticipated from quiet time, with paper in hand, eager to show me a picture you had drawn.

And the joy in your face was more important than the fact that you had come downstairs far too early.

Instead of sending you back upstairs until quiet time was officially over, I invited you to bring your new crayons downstairs to color with me.

We sat, pulled out clean sheets of crisp paper, and spread the crayons before us.

From a sea of colors, with each crayon you chose, you asked me to read you the names.

Names that were more than just the words on the colored wrappers.

Names that bring to mind stories that I will share with you one day.

Salmon.

The color of my childhood home…a home that held tremendous sadness, but also immeasurable joy. The home in which I learned about trust, loss, love, and survival.

Wisteria.

The color of the profusely-blooming vine behind the house we lived in before you were born. Your daddy and I sat beneath those vines, on still summer nights, and dreamed of you.

Cerulean.

Daddy’s mommy’s favorite color.  One day I will tell you about the rich velvets that she wore…cerulean, turquoise, violet. I will tell how those jewel tones mirrored the vibrancy of her soul.

Aquamarine.

The color of the sea where Daddy and I were married. One day I will tell you how marrying Daddy brought me a peace that I’d never known before. I will tell you that in those moments, the fear that I had carried around for my entire life was washed away.

Fuchsia.

The color of the Bleeding Heart plants that flanked my grandparents’ home…the home that held only happiness, acceptance, and love.

Outer Space Blue.

The color of my grandfather’s tie…the length of silk with which he taught me the Windsor Knot…one of the many lessons taught to me by the man who stepped into the role of father when I lost my own.

Asparagus and Gold.

The color of my mother’s eyes. The eyes that reassured me that things would be okay. The eyes that have never let me down.

One day, you’ll pull crayons out of a similar box for your children and they’ll look at you, waiting to hear your stories.

May your pile of crayons be huge and colorful…and the stories you share, happy ones.

With a heart brimming with love and dreams of helping you to color your childhood,

Mommy

42 comments

  1. anothermomof2

    Sometimes, I barely know how to comment on one of your posts because you take my breath away so infinitely, it feels like it won't return.

    Thank you, my friend. Goodness, how this did my heart well tonight. xoxo

  2. Courtney K. themommymatters.com

    How you can pull something so seemingly insignificant into a beautiful story…a beautiful memory…is breathtaking. What a heartwarming scene you just painted.

  3. MamaWantsThis mamawantsthis.com

    I love the way you weaved the colors into such beautiful memories, Nichole. Your writing is breathtaking.

  4. JDaniel4's Mom

    What an amazing post! Your memories have drawn beautiful pictures on my heart.

  5. CDG

    Beautiful, Nichole. Just beautiful.

  6. AwayWeGoNancy npoj.blogspot.com

    I adore this idea. I'm now thinking of the colors of my life, and how I will share them. Gorgeous writing.

  7. Ryan @TWM thewovenmoments.com

    Oh, Nichole. What a beautiful post. I feel like I can SEE "asparagus and gold" eyes. So beautiful.

  8. galitbreen

    I love these small moments wrapped up in colors- genius, lovely.

  9. Jessica fourplusanangel.com

    Oh so amazing Nichole, I barely know what to say. Your talent is beyond words.

  10. Renée A. Schuls-Jacobson

    So lovely, Nichole! It made me think I hope she is keeping a scrapbook of her blog posts. Because your pieces are so intimate, your daughter will love to hear about these stories about herself and these people one day! Stick in a few pictures and boom! Instant scrapbook! ;-)

    You know, because you have so much time to do that.

  11. That one wowed me. Amazing. The mother you are and the love you hold in your heart. Just wow, Nichole. So beautiful! You are an inspiration in so many ways.

  12. I'm truely speechless. Absolutely breathtaking.

  13. Evonne julesoutloud.blogspot.com

    Beautiful! Your writing is simply amazing. Nothing I can say will truly capture the grace you have when sharing thee small moments.

  14. bywordofmouthmusings

    The colors that weave together to make the tapestry that is life …
    what a beautiful way to store your memories!

  15. Sherri

    Oh Nichole….so beautiful. You've made me want to grab the box of crayons and color…and dream…and remember.

    This is so you, and I am so very glad this post made it out of your heart.

  16. Elaine misselaineouslife.com

    The beauty of this just speaks to my soul. I have so many memories associated with colors as well. They way you wrote this TO her…. Thy way you wove it all together is just gorgeous Nichole. I'm in awe.

  17. Mrs. Wonder Sunshinewonderland.com

    Gorgeous.

  18. julie gardner juliecgardner.com

    Oh, Nichole. What color crayons will she select to represent her childhood?

    Which shade is for laughter and dancing? For beauty and love?
    For her parents and her brother? For hope?

    What a lovely rainbow Katie will be able to draw.
    Thanks to you.

  19. thisismynewmoon

    Beautiful. Love this post.

  20. Shelli shellisstory.blogspot.com

    All I can say is that your children are very, VERY fortunate to have you. A beautiful post!

  21. Wow, this post leaves me a little speechless. Who knew crayons could hold such a treasure of memories.

  22. *sigh* I just love the way you write. How you can put so much feeling into a color is amazing. LOVE IT!

  23. This is so sweet and brought tears to my eyes!

  24. So beautiful, Nichole. I had a post about crayon colours this week too. Very different though! But same love for the names.

  25. Amazing, breathtaking…now I need to go buy some new crayons!!!

  26. gigi

    Oh, this is one of my favorite posts of yours for sure. She will treasure this!

  27. Tonya lettersforlucas.com

    This made me smile. Such a beautiful and colorful life you have had and give to Kate and Matthew both.

  28. Missy | Literal Mom literalmom.com

    I saw this cross my Twitter deck today and am so glad I came over to read it. Just beautiful.

  29. mommyofamonster

    Your words do something to me, Nichole…I can't even describe. They're lovely and dreamy and fill me with emotion. One of my favorite posts ever!

  30. I loved this post. I think I want to go color now.

  31. I don't have much to say, but I wanted to let you know that this took my breath away. I have always loved choosing colors with Abbey, and I will cherish those quiet moments even more after reading this.

  32. I'm always astounded at all the beauty you see in the everyday.

  33. Kathy

    Gorgeous post! I love what that unexpected coloring session with your daughter inspired in you.

  34. Mama Hear Me Roar

    What a wonderful way you made of that opportunity, Nichole. You make me treasure even more those quiet moments with my children.

  35. You show a beautiful talent with words here. Lovely integration of colors into memories.

  36. @sharmstro twitter.com/sharmstro

    Love the coloured memories. Love, love this post.

  37. Sara (sarasexpletives)

    This is so beautiful. Reading something like this gives me just a tiny glimmer of wanting to be a mother (I don't plan on having children). It truly is a relationship like none other. Absolutely loved your writing.

  38. Catherine inside-outpdx.blogspot.com

    This was so wonderfully evocative, thank you! It made me want to grab a box of crayons and daydream.

    Visiting from W.O.E

  39. Courtney 242reasons.blogspot.com

    Just. Beautiful. I'm speechless.

  40. **sniff**!

    Just beautiful. Wonderful imagery in a very tender thought. I hope your crayon wishes for her come true!
    http://contemplatinghappiness.blogspot.com/2011/0

  41. Amanda dabblingaway.com

    This is one of the most amazing blog posts I've ever read.

  42. So sensational…I love when the simplest itmes bring the most complex thoughts. http://mamawolfe-living.blogspot.com

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