Said with Such Love

This week, on Small Moments Mondays, my lovely friend, Angela, from Tiaras and Trucks is sharing a small moment that so many of us will be able to relate to.

One of the things that I love most about Angela is that while what you see on the surface is so lovely, what lies beneath is beyond amazing. She is soft and kind, but also has an unwavering strength that I truly admire.

She is funny and sweet, but she is such a powerful writer that she can move me to tears in a heartbeat. She just makes me feel what she feels.

Thank you, Angela, for sharing your words here. Thank you for inspiring me with your writing and for being my friend. I am so lucky to know you.

Said with Such Love — by Angela

Her golden head falling on my shoulder while reading a story stops my breath, leaving me wondering how I can possibly change her life like this, how I could bring a baby into her world, how I can take her mommy away.

Nursing him in the dark, a few tears fall onto his wispy hair. Loving and affectionate, he easily slides into his place in our family, but I desperately worry he will never know the undivided adoration of first-time parents.

More than a year later, Abbey and Dylan’s first egg hunt has her giddy with anticipation, carefully clutching both of their baskets to her chest as we walk to the park. Her nod is serious as she listens to how she’ll have to wait for the “babies” to find their eggs first, while she plays with her friends on the slides and monkey bars and waits her turn.

He is simply happy to be riding in the stroller, feeling the wind in his hair, giggling and tossing his snack cup to the ground, knowing I will pick it up and return it with a tickle or a kiss.

Clouds hang over the park, but colored eggs evoke a festive feeling, kids jumping and running over plastic bridges, their eyes hunting eggs they know they mustn’t yet touch. Parents of older children chat while those of us with wobbly toddlers follow closely, steadying them on small steps and inclines and stumpy slides.

Abbey rushes away immediately, daringly stepping from one moving disk to another.

“Mommy! Look at me!” she calls, proudly announcing the feat that was beyond her grasp only months before.

I clap and smile, my heart a little hurt that I can’t reach out to give her a hug or high five while chasing Dylan from the fireman’s pole.

Ushering Dylan over to where countless eggs carpet the grass for the youngest participants, I hand him his basket, pointing at the bright orbs. This is rare, my undivided attention, and his smile shines brightly towards me. Unsteadily, but purposefully, he walks to an egg and stops. Now he is uncertain, and his smile falters. I crouch near him, pointing to the egg.

“For Dylan!”

His brow furrows. His bright, blue eyes scan the playground.

“Addie? Addie?!”

With slight apprehension, I call her over, knowing she is anticipating her turn, worrying she’ll be disappointed at my request.

“Dylan needs your help,” I say simply, bracing myself for her response.

Immediately, she crouches much as I had, pointing at the same egg.

“Look Dylan! An egg!”

Patiently, slowly, she wanders with him amidst the eggs, telling him their colors, getting excited with him about one red egg so big he needs both hands to hold it.

“Addie,” he sighs happily, handing her the egg and watching her place it in his basket.

Her name, mispronounced, has never been said with such love.

With their few, simple words, I become an observer, a mommy not to Abbey or Dylan but to Abbey and Dylan. Siblings.

See what I mean? Isn’t she amazing?

I’d love it if you went over to Tiaras and Trucks to say hello to Angela. Don’t miss Through Their Eyes, The Best Laid Hands, Runner. I’m a Runner, and Why I Get Laughed at on Walks.

Angela is also one of my favorite tweeps. Go find her on Twitter! You’ll be so glad you did.

22 comments

  1. Sherri

    Oh, I am weepy too! I think any parent who has more than one can relate to this….so sweet and wonderful. This is the last thing I'll read tonight, and I'm glad I squeezed it in. Lovely…

  2. tracy sellabitmum.com

    This post made me sob. Gosh I love the sibling relationship. So beautiful.

  3. Beautiful. I only have one and he's the center of my universe. I can't fathom what it feels like with two or more.

  4. Nichole, thank you so, so much for letting me share this here! You can't know how much your kind words mean to me. I feel eternally grateful that I can call you my friend :)

  5. This is beautiful. Sometimes it's amazing to step back and see how they are with one another. My daughter and son adore one another and it just amazes me how easily it comes to them both. Great post.

  6. Jen Has A Pen jenhasapen.com

    I'm a sobbing mess too. If I'm this emotional about YOUR kids, do you think I ought to just throw in the towel on having my own? ;-)

  7. What beautiful words, there is no comparison to the feeling in your heart when your children have those bonding moments.
    None at all.

  8. midwestmomments

    So beautiful! So true! Thankful your kids have such an amazing relationship and you are wise enough to step out of the way.

  9. Kir

    OH Ang, how I LOVED this!!!!!! I just adored it.

    I love how the interaction between them is so effortless and how you get to just sit back and watch it,. watch your children grow up together.

    Your words were splendid!!!!! xo

  10. Oh, I so pray that my children will love each other like this. And yes, I'm typing this will tears fall on the face of my nursing son.
    Such a timely post for me.
    Thank you Nichole for introducing us to this beautiful writer and mother.

  11. This is one of those things I tuck away to help get through the moments when they're fighting over the same dusty cheerio :)

    People always said things like, "giving her a sibling is the best gift", and moments like this make me believe those words :)

  12. It's really a magical thing to see. She picks on him relentlessly, but the second someone else thinks about taking a toy from him, she's right there, helping him out.

  13. He said "Addie" before "mama"! She is his favorite person in the world. I look forward to seeing them grow in their relationship.

  14. No, no, no! For all of the billions of tears (happy and sad) they will make you shed, their smiles and laughter are the greatest feeling in the world. xoxo

  15. I hope they continue to share a closeness, although they do push each other's buttons like no one else :) (They are so very, very different personality-wise!)

  16. Oh, thank you! I can't imagine how magical it is to watch twins! To always have each other will be such a blessing for your little men.

  17. I love hearing that, just LOVE it, because I truly hope they will be each other's best buds.

  18. When he was young, I felt very concerned that I wouldn't be enough for both of them. Little did I know that they would fill in the gaps I was leaving with their own special bond and relationship. There are rough moments, but their adoration for each other is always there (even when they're hiding it!)

    Your babies will love each other, because they have your example of love for each of them to follow :)

  19. Oh, thank you! Your heart will grow. I promise. I was so concerned how I was supposed to love anyone as much as my daughter; then I met my son!

  20. Love love LOVE.
    I have the same apprehensions as number two is on the way. But I am so looking forward to little sweet moments like this… I can hardly stand it.

  21. Having a second child was so stressful, I was worried about the same thing. Now the two of them are attached at the hip, and hate to be separated. It's adorable!

  22. ksluiter

    Oh I LOVE Angela! She is so very lovely! This post…this right here is what shows up in my dreams when I let my mind wander to the possibility of getting pregnant again.

    love LOVE this.

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