Today was a tough day for mommy.
I had to make a decision that impacts you and it hurts my heart.
Mommy and Daddy are trying to make a baby brother or sister for you.
But, we’re not having any luck.
Mommy still nurses you in the morning and at night and those quiet moments with you are amongst my favorites of the entire day.
For nearly 18 months, we have greeted and closed the day nursing and connecting with one another.
But now, we will begin the day differently. With hugs and snuggles. With giggles and smiles.
We want so badly to give you another sibling.
Another person that you can lean on.
Another person to make you laugh.
Another person to love you when Mommy and Daddy are no longer here.
So, we will nurse a bit less to see if that helps.
It hurts me to take from you so that I can give to you.
We will still nurse at night and I will savor those moments with you.
My sweet boy. You will always be my baby.
I promise you.
I love you, sweet Matthew,