Happy First Birthday, my sweet baby boy.
How is it possible that a year has passed since you entered our lives?
There’s so much that I want to tell you. I long to help you understand just how much we love and value you.
For days, I’ve been trying to draft this letter to you, but every time that I sat down to put my feelings into words, I was overcome with love … pure love with no words attached. And the page before me remained blank.
Katie entered our world and brought us so much joy. She was an easy baby and she enhanced so much of who I already was. She is truly magical and has made me love more deeply, protect more fiercely, and appreciate life more fully.
When you entered our world, you were more challenging. You didn’t sleep nearly as well, you cried day in and day out for months from terrible acid reflux. But you made me a better person. You taught me just how strong I am, how capable I am of loving even when things aren’t easy and perfect. You taught me about myself, Matthew, and for that, I am so grateful to you.
Over the past year, you have grown into the sweetest baby. You light up when you see me, you are delighted by Katie, and you squeal with joy when you hear Daddy’s car pull into the garage.
You love independent play, but every few minutes, you crawl over to me and climb onto my lap and hold me tight. I always think that you are just checking in with me, looking for reassurance and a bit of love.
You are impossibly tender and loving. You hold on to me as though you’re trying to tell me just how much you love me.
I can’t imagine a world without you in it, Matthew. I have come to love you more intensely than I could have ever dreamed.
Thank you for all that you have brought to my life. Thank you for loving me and for making me a better person.
I hope that the upcoming year drags by. I hope that you take your time learning how to walk. I hope that you stay cuddly and soft. Please take your time and stay my baby for just a bit longer, I can’t bear to have you grow up yet.
With a heart simply overflowing with love,