Forever and Ever

Dear Katie and Matthew,

I am writing to apologize to each of you for my complete lack of patience this afternoon.  I was tired, grumpy, and simply no fun to be with.

I rushed you, was easily exasperated by you, and caught myself longing for bedtime more often than I care to admit.

Today was not one of my finer parenting days.

Though your daddy was at the ready with extra tickles, distractions, and unlimited patience, I am so truly disappointed in myself.

Please know that I love you each of you to the moon and back…and in words that you’ve each heard more times than you could possibly count…

I love you big as the world,

high as the sky,

deep as the ocean,

forever and ever.*

With all of the love that my heart can possibly hold,


*My mother spoke these words to me each and every day of my childhood.  No matter how the day had gone, I never doubted for even one second that she loved me.  It is my hope that you always feel that same sense security.


  1. kris

    Not every day is perfect.

    Not every moment in a lifetime of mothering is perfect.

    Not all moments are meant to to be held and cherished. That's what makes the one that are worthy? So lovely.

    Apologize. And forgive yourself.

    These bad moments pass into ones filled with magic.


    And move on.

  2. I could have easily written this post myself several times over the past few days–heck let's be honest… weeks. All we can do is apologize and be thankful that in the long run we have raised such amazing children that they will forgive us…

  3. andygirl

    you're a good mom. your babes will forget one bad day and remember all the great ones.

  4. Kmama

    We all have those days. (HUGS) I have more of those than I care to admit. Last night, I found myself excited to go back to work today.

    Just the fact that you care enough to type something out proves that you're a great mom!

  5. Renee

    You’re doing fine. It’s part of the job.

    I had so many of these days with my daughter. I wish there had been fewer.
    But, she still comes to me for advice and comfort. So she must have forgiven.
    And now, she has a toddler. She gets it.

  6. Peggy

    wow…ok, first, stop bing so hard on yourself. You are a great mom. We all have days that we are not proud of ourselves.

    2nd..those are the same words that your Uncle Max says to me. It kind of threw me back to see them on your blog. My guess is that those beautiful children of yours will grow up to say it to your grandchildren someday.

  7. Natalie

    I always apologize when I'm not mom-of-the-day as well. We all have bad days, moms and kids included. They forgot about it minutes after it happened :)

  8. @zenfiremama

    good to know that I am not alone in having 'those' days.
    thank you for sharing.

  9. ksluiter

    so many days I feel the need to apologize to Eddie. We can't be all things every day. That is the one nugget I have gleaned from this parenting thing.

    you are great. no…you are better than great.

    much love to you.

  10. this is lovely.
    we all have these days. don't be too hard on yourself. you are doing a wonderful job!

  11. Booyah's Momma

    Your mother's words were so beautiful. And I have a feeling that, just as you did, your children will never doubt for one minute that their mother loves them.

  12. Some days are so challenging. We strive to be the "perfect" on parent all of the time, but we're only human too. Our children learn from our mistakes too :) Beautiful post.

  13. Nikki

    I find myself longing for bedtime too, and then when it's there, longing for playtime and feeling like a terrible mother for wanting to be rid of my child just so I can sit alone on the couch. It makes me sad just typing it.

  14. Nichole

    Thank you…so much.
    Moving on, breathing, and reminding myself to count to ten. :)

  15. Nichole

    I'm hoping for a 95/5 mixture…95% great mommy and only 5% bad mommy.
    And I hope that they forget that 5%. :)

  16. Nichole

    Thank you, my comforting friend. Thank you so much.

  17. Nichole

    I actually thought to myself that day that I almost wished that I had a job outside of the home to go to.
    This being a good mom thing is a lot of work!

  18. Nichole

    Thank you, Renee. You make me hopeful. :)

  19. Nichole

    Want to hear the funniest part?
    The next day, Craig asked me what this post was all about. He said he hadn't noticed anything!
    I guess I did a pretty okay job of not letting the kids feel my frustration! :)

    I love that phrase…it brings me back to some of the happiest moments of my childhood. Do you know where they got it from? I have no memory of Grammy saying it…
    Love you!

  20. Nichole

    I try to apologize so that they understand how important it is to admit when you've handled yourself poorly. I think you're right…we remember things far longer than they ever do.

  21. Nichole

    Huge love right back to you.
    Thank you for taking the time to prop me up a bit. :)

  22. Nichole

    Thank you.
    I try to remind myself that I may trip and fall, but if I can get right back up and try harder, then I'm doing something right. :)

  23. Nichole

    They really are beautiful and so full of memories for me.
    Thank you for coming by and for your kind words. :)

  24. Nichole

    Some days are much tougher than others.
    Thank you for your sweet words. I think you're right, they learn from our mistakes and see that we're human.

  25. Nichole

    I cannot tell you how many times I've felt that same way.
    I always remind myself that we need time to recharge so that we can be good parents. We can't only be mom. We still have to have time for ourselves in order to thrive.

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