Today you turn three years old.
I feel as though I turned my back and you became a preschooler, full of curiosity and excitement, wishes and preferences. I want so badly to describe you, to find some way to summarize who you are in this moment, but I find that to be an impossible task. You are complex and diverse. My description is disjointed, as you are still putting together all of the pieces of who you are.
You are everything I ever dreamed that a daughter would be.
You are pure magic. You taught me what it meant to be a mother and you teach me new lessons every day–lessons in patience, silliness, tenderness, and vulnerability.
You are silly and engaging. You love to giggle and you crave tickles. These are moments that I will hold close for those days when you aren’t by my side. I will never forget the sound of your laugh, the urgency in your eyes.
You have so much to say. You got a late start, but since you began speaking, you talk so much that I keep thinking that we have certainly covered everything. When I hear your voice, my heart cracks open with adoration and pride.
Though you are by nature a bit reserved and reluctant, when you open up, you are magnetic and engaging. You are smart, intuitive, and compassionate.
You are stunning. Your hazel eyes sparkle and betray your thoughts. It is so easy to see when you are making plans.
You are loving and kind. When you reach for my hand or ask me to sit close to you, I would drop anything, Katie. Nothing is more important than those moments with you, with your hand in mine.
Lately you’ve been asserting yourself a bit more and you are proving to be committed to the things that you want. There are times when this exasperates me, but I’m also impressed with you. I want you to learn how to hold firm when you want something and I am proud of you for communicating your wants so clearly. Your vocabulary grows by the day, as does the complexity of your thoughts. You are learning solid reasoning and debating skills and that makes me immeasurably happy.
Daddy and I realized last night that 1/6 of our time with you in our home is behind us. I can’t fathom the day when you go off to college, when your world extends so far beyond us. I hope that I have the strength and courage to let you go, but also the love and tenderness that makes you want to come back.
Thank you for bringing such beauty into my life. Thank you for reminding me how wonderful it is to be silly and to giggle. Thank you for lighting up when you see me. You are a gift Katie. I treasure my days with you and I am so incredibly grateful for you.
You have beautiful things in your future, Katie.
Above all, you are an angel, my beautiful, sweet girl.
Happy Birthday, Katie!
With a heart so full of love,